Well I finally made it through my first week without Zach, and it was rather hard to say the least. For all of you that don't know Zach has taken a job that will require him to travel at least once a month for a week at a time. Luckily this first one was only 4 days, so it is essentially easing me into the whole idea of it. To be honest I thought it was going to be fine and I was going to be happy to have myself to myself, whatever that means. But after 4 years of marriage I have just not enjoyed when he is not around, at least at the end of the day. I have really come to realize that I want to be with him, and yes there are times that I want to do my own thing, but that is not very often. Zach is my best friend and has always treated me so well and when he wasn't there at the end of the day and I put Alyda to bed by myself, brushed my teeth alone and got into a cold bed I felt sad. If nothing else it made me also see how much I should show him more often that I love him when he is around and look forward to our long life together for eternity.